Burned (Burned, #1) by Ellen Hopkins

Synopsis:

I do know things really began to spin out of control after my first sex dream. 

It all started with a dream. Nothing exceptional, just a typical fantasy about a boy, the kind of dream that most teen girls experience. But Pattyn Von Stratten is not like most teen girls. Raised in a religious -- yet abusive -- family, a simple dream may not be exactly a sin, but it could be the first step toward hell and eternal damnation. 

This dream is a first step for Pattyn. But is it to hell or to a better life? For the first time Pattyn starts asking questions. Questions seemingly without answers -- about God, a woman's role, sex, love -- mostly love. What is it? Where is it? Will she ever experience it? Is she deserving of it? 

It's with a real boy that Pattyn gets into real trouble. After Pattyn's father catches her in a compromising position, events spiral out of control until Pattyn ends up suspended from school and sent to live with an aunt she doesn't know. 

Pattyn is supposed to find salvation and redemption during her exile to the wilds of rural Nevada. Yet what she finds instead is love and acceptance. And for the first time she feels worthy of both -- until she realizes her old demons will not let her go. Pattyn begins down a path that will lead her to a hell -- a hell that may not be the one she learned about in sacrament meetings, but it is hell all the same. 

In this riveting and masterful novel told in verse, Ellen Hopkins takes readers on an emotional roller-coaster ride. From the highs of true love to the lows of abuse, Pattyn's story will have readers engrossed until the very last word.

Rating:★★★★½

Review:

I had the privilege of listening to the audiobook version of this and it was one of the best narrations I've ever heard. I've loved all of Ellen Hopkins books I've read so far and this one was no different. No matter what situation Ellen Hopkins decides to sink her teeth in she always elicits so much emotion and energy it breaks your heart and heals it all at the same time.

I'm not an emotional person but Pattyn's situations really tugs on your heart strings and gets you involved in the story. I found myself cheering her on even though something like breaking someone's nose isn't something to cheer on, I had to assess the situation.


What I like most about Pattyn's character is that she wasn't afraid to nor was she hesitant to admit her wrongs or her confusions about things going on in her life. She is one of the most relatable and likeable characters I've ever had the pleasure of getting to know, and not in a cliche kind of way. I thought Pattyn's dad was bad at the beginning of the story (classic abuser) but it was nothing compared to what we found out about the fall out between him and aunt J. And speaking of Aunt J, she's like america's own personal aunt, she's just that amazing as a person.

Even though I though the puppy love relationship was cute, I wasn't a fan of the insta-love that lead up to it. I wish Pattyn and Ethan  had more time as friends before they jumped right into being "in love". Also, the love square or relationship square, which ever you want to call it, was cute but a little awkward taking in the account the people that were involved.

I loved this and I recommend this to everyone!! Beware the heartbreak💔💔💔😭😭